..procrastination kills.. (x_x)

Yes, I did it.. But I was not faithful in following the intructions. I did not go on duty last March 24, 2001 to have my practicum . I thought It's okay to comply the requirements until the end of May. My bad! I didn't ask for clarrifications. I was too confident with my thoughts. I had been procrastinating about taking the practicum because I was too anxious and scared to do it. I allowed the negative thoughts to dwell in my mind.
"What will I do now?" I thought with dismay, slowly realizing the harsh reality of my predicament and its upsetting implications on my future.
I have to do it again. There are no room for regrets now.
As what my friend (Charmaine Acha) said:
..embrace the feeling but don't linger in the depths..
Mistakes are inevitable. None of us like it but it is just how things work out. Things that go wrong will be our doing, while other things that go wrong won’t be. I act like a scared person when I don’t feel like that inside. I want to be someone who isn’t scared of doing things. I must learn from my mistakes.. move on.. change for the better.. and get a life!

 2 Timothy 1:7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

I DiD It!!

It is only by the grace of God that I am able to comply the requirements for IV Therapy Training:

Initiating Maintaining Peripheral IV Infusions, Administering Intravenous Drugs and Administering & Maintaining Blood and Blood Components! =)

..my sister's moment..

...Mama & Papa.. Thank u so much for your sacrifices....
We think of you-- The unconditional love you give us.....
The sweet and generous things you do for us.. We love you Papa & Mama..

...Mama.. without you, there would be no us..Your love, your attention, your guidance...have made us who we are...Without you, we would be lost, wandering aimlessly, without direction or purpose. You showed us the way to serve, to accomplish, to persevere. Without you, there would be an empty space we could never fill, no matter how we tried...We Love you mama...

Mama...
We think of all the things you gave to us...
Sacrifice, devotion, love and tears,...
Your heart, your mind, your energy and soul--
All these you spent on us throughout the years...
...Thank you so much for everything Mama...
We love you...

...missin my mama so much...

"All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort." 2 Corinthians 1:3

...i miss my mother so much.. T_T..
I can hardly see through my tears.. T_T
I have conversations with her in my head all the time and try to think about what she'd say about this or that...
So often, when I'm making a decision, I wish she was here so I could ask her advice....and so many times, when something happens that I know she would enjoy, I wish she was here to share it with me...it's been a decade already since the last time we're together..she works outside the country to give us the best life...she sacrificed a lot for us... She's more than a mother to me; a reflection of God in her face I see, a love that knows no boundaries.. I had hurt her a lot and caused her much pain but still she forgave me, accepted me and called me as her "precious".

Dear Lord, thank you for blessing me with a mother who introduced me to You when I was old enough to talk. For without You, I’d be lost and certainly wouldn’t appreciate the mother you gave me..

My heart's desire is to be with her again..missin my mama so much... T_T

...waiting not in vain...

...There are days when I feel strong, resilient and focused. I see at times a window of progress. And yet there are times I feel impatient waiting for a breakthrough in my career. I wait. I watch. I wonder when, why, who and how?

...It takes a lot of strength to persevere and have patience to wait for GOD’s divine timing in my life. It’s not easy, though.

...There are voices without and within causing me to think that I am defeated, unworthy and forgotten. Yet I desire to grow in my patience and faith.

...Rest assured, that my waiting is not in vain. God is faithful. I may not see or understand God’s mysterious ways or divine delays. Yet I wait and depend on God for HIS strength and guidance.

…Thank God for HIS promises never fail:

...Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength.

- Isaiah 40:31

...The Lord is good to those who wait for Him

- Jeremiah 3:25

...Wait on the Lord; be of good courage and He shall strengthen your heart

- Psalm 27:14

...Trust in the LORD and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.

-Psalm 37:3

God's mercy is new every morning. (Lamentations 3:22,23 KJV.)

Some nights I crawl into bed convinced I must have used up all of God’s mercy that day.

I started working as a Nurse Preceptee in Vicente Gullas Memorial Medical Hospital since October 22, 2010 and at the same time I work in E-lamp as an online English Tutor to Koreans.

"Don't you get tired? That must be really stressful", they said.

I always thank God for His grace in my life. His grace is more than enough. He renews my strength everyday. There are days when I wake up in a "so-so mood" but I thank GOD because His mercy is new every morning. He is a merciful and gracious God. I wake up every morning and greet each new day knowing that His mercies are new everyday.

“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” – Lamentations 3:22-23

My Co-Nurse Preceptees (@ VGMMH)

We started working as Nurse Preceptees in Vicente Gullas Memorial Medical Hospital since October 22, 2010 and our contract ended last January 22, 2011. It was such a wonderful and unforgettable experience. We will renew our contract after one month. I am really looking forward to working with them again! (^_^)

Ate Charissa, Me, Co and ate April

Ate Cathy and Jay

Ate Agnes, Janice & Ma-an Antonio

Ma-an Amper, Em and Eleng

Ate Cathy, Carmel & I

Janice, Ma-an Antonio & Ma-an Amper

Carmela, Me, Ate Charissa & Ate April

Charge Nurse: Ms Elizabeth Ong, Kim and Ate Erna

Ma-an, Me, Eleng, Janice, Ma-an, Ate Irene & Ate Agnes